I am often deeply moved by tv news stories, but once in a while something really hits home. This could quite possibly be due to its powerful depiction of aspects of humanity such as human suffering and vindication. I am inclined to posit that such stories bring into sharp focus how terribly wasted; that is, cheap, shallow, frivolous and self centred my twenty two year Scientology career was. Scientology degraded me, used me, perverted me. Such stories as this depicted below zoom in on the cynical way in which the cult extravagantly squandered my own goodness, my willingness to sacrifice all those years, career prospects, possibility of the creation and nurturing of a wife and children of my own. The sharing of all the joy and pain of life with sisters, brothers, my foster parents, I can imagine the pure unadulterated thrill of teaching my unborn kids to sail, look after dogs, running on beaches, sunsets. I am moved to examine the way in which the cult of Scientology abused and devoured my loyalty, the power of my love for this world and my fellow human beings. I am fairly sure, that once the difficult years of my troubled teens and the grieving over the untimely deaths of my parents and subsequent breakup of my family had run their course, that I would have embarked on a career in education; focusing on children with special needs or traumatic backgrounds. But I ended up shilling for a cult who's only god was 'next week's big GI stat push'. I knew it all the time, I knew I was selling myself short, that knowledge constantly seared my conscience, but I refused to acknowledge it, till it was so very, very late. Please watch these (three) clips below, two are part 1and 2, a couple of years old, are from from the Australian 'Sixty Minutes' program, the other needs no introduction. Back to back they speak for themselves, yet spoke to me in profound way. http://sixtyminutes.ninemsn.com.au/s...out-of-control (if YT are slow) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUt5NK-h7-o&feature=related http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9oEG42lSSAA&NR=1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H-C-wupe76E&feature=related Over the past couple of years I have been able to claw back some of the life I lost, I am well into middle age, and that has a limiting effect on career goals and the like, yet I find this Scientology free life so beautiful, so full of richness and potential. I remain saddened when I see commentary on boards and forums that are so obviously from Scientologists sent as bird dogs by OSA or directly by David Miscavige and RTC, when all they need to is do is to sit down and make an honest human comparison between what the cult says and does with such stories as depicted here, give us little a glimpse into something of what goes on in the lives of people in the real world. I would appeal to any public Scientologist carrying out internet trolling to stop for a moment, view these videos and maybe for once, do a really honest doubt formula. I did so a few years ago, and it was life changing.